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..to my blog, where I post my thoughts, comments, opinions, and a little bit of sugar, spice, and everything nice :) If you disagree with anything I say, you can either keep it to yourself, or press the [x] button located at the top-right corner of your dear browser. Enjoy your stay and come again!

Layyie

Yay! SweetS! It's a new layyie for the new year. Haha! This is a summer lay-out actually, but I couldn't wait to put it up. Ain't it just luvly? :) No stealing! It took me at least 6 hours to finish it! Well anyway, enjoy~! ^_^

Me

Who the heck runs this blog, you ask? It's me, Patricia, a.k.a. Yuki(or snowflake, Kumiko, Shouko, Aria..take your pick). A Pinay who has been breathing for 12 years already since I came out on 01-18-94. Careless, clumsy, but I do have common sense. Respectful and polite, but make me mad and we shall have war >:) Anime lover(duh), and yes, I love snow. Smart, weird, creative, cool, quiet, noisy, or in short, just plain human. Welcome to my world.

Friends

x. Ali
x. Ain
x. Tohru
x. Mamaru
x. Jolene
x. Kira Yamato
x. Ygraine
x. Coleen
x. Ryua
x. Ayashi
x. Na-chan
x. AJ
x. Jocelyn
x. Bels
x. Tomoe
x. Kyu
x. HanMae
x. Jellie
x. Cherry
x. Mint
x. Kumiko Asuka
x. Kimi
x. Kiara
x. 24 Wishes(music blog)
x. Nagi
x. Dei-chan
x. Karen
x. Hyrokkin
x. Hero Tsukimoto
x. Marose
x. Rose
x. Cnaj
x. My live journal(NOT YET DONE//do not visit just yet..)
x. Chris
x. Fiel
x. Aya
x. Musikera
x. Mikmik
x. Textmates
x. Niknok
x. Arianne
x. Roxanne
x. Nox
x. Rozeh
x. Terrorism Israel(someone e-mailed me this link and I decided to check it out..anyway try to look at it. I translated it at Google though I don't understand much of what was written..)


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MP3 of the month: Rainbow by South Border..mellow song with acoustic beats in the background..&download

My japanese name is 猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 久美子 Kumiko (eternal beautiful child).
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Credit

[Mienai Tsubasa][Yuki]

Friday, December 29, 2006

I'm troubled.

I'm lost.

I don't know what to do anymore.

To be honest, I'm thinking of giving up.

I'm getting irritated already of her mood swings. It just destroyed my day. It pressures me to me someone I'm not in my own house. I'm feeling uncomfortable and sad. I thought she was going to be like a real mom. But I don't give up easily. I just don't know what to do. I'm terribly scared of rejection, so I don't want to confront her yet. I want to talk to her. I want it this stupid problem to be fixed already. It has destroyed my day, I don't want it to destroy my life. I'm gonna talk to her and ask her why she is behaving like that, why sometimes she is so insensitive, why we are the victims. I don't want to lose her. But I'm tired and sick of being treated this way. I've tried to see it from her point of view for the last 4 years already, and I don't want to happen again. I want her to change. Not just for us, but maybe for the other people who she hurt. I'm just not ready yet.